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hi diarry i know i love to wright about feelings and that is what i seem to be good at i have tryed fiction and its not for me and its not easy to wright fiction at all its easyer to wright about feelings than it is to wright a thriller even and for some reason i should take up counciling wrighting diarrys as they wood be easy to do i think and i am not sure if it wood be easy to be a counciler as the storrys you hear must be giving you dreams later

hi diarry that is how i was not happy to post to other blogs as this one took me alot of work and i will not let it go as i feel its well used so far i was checking it and we have had a post all the months since november as a blog goes buy months so in may it will say 1 again and june it will say 1 again later

hi diarry i wood just like to welcome all my readers back to my old blog the chat resort as i feel at home here and only if we go pots up we will do another new blog and apart from that we will stay here hugs

hi all i feel it is much more homely on the chat resort than it is on other blogs as i have had the resort since november 2018 and i was personally missing it and i did not want you to feel hurt with my feelings towards this blog and that is also how i was more shy of posting to other blogs so i have made up my mind from today it will be the chat resort and no other blogs in less we have a mager hich and then i will have to  have another new blog i will lightly call it the scottish famly or the edinburgh chat bar but lets not go down that path as it does not bear thinking of since we had lots of wrighting here if you mind the new posts of my blog go at the top of the blog and all the older posts are in history and just read the newest as what is history is passed feelings and if they come up again i will share them here with you as allways later frends

Hi all I was going to start a new blog but I changed my mind as its got a lot of good posts since november 2018 so its not good to start another one I was looking at another host but the websight does work but its not as easy as google with a screen reader and I am not sure if its free but I canceled my account right away as it said prices so I thought no not free Later

hi diarry as i was looking online on tuesday i came a cross this line about when you go to move your bowels and i want to give you my view on this line as i think it could be my trigger totally or 1 of them this line says Make yourself as comfortable as possible as you sit on the toilet now i can not seem to do this at all at phew and after reading this i am really thinking this is why i can not go as i can not get my self comfortable on the toilet and this article also said make sure you are leening forward when you are plopping i think its a handy article  if you wish to have a look https://www.verywellhealth.com/how-to-use-bowel-retraining-for-constipation-1944789 later

Hi diarry I know I am updating this month a lot as its easter and nothing is really happening on groups until maybe Tuesday 23rd of april as all is on holiday so I will be updating until we see what is happening with my books as he did say a few weeks but the thing which I have saw when I was looking at the old download sight is its updating again so I did send him another email to find out if he knew it was doing this as  some one said new titles were not going on there you see or I hope you do see how I am sending him so menny emails as hush I know he is telling me the truth but I wonder if he knows its still having updates of april 2019 books that is the weard thing about this and that is how i am questioning him about it as i need to know sooner or later i will do a more detailed post maybe not today but soon later

Diarry I have just got up on this Monday morning and my head is buzzing with a lot of heavy thoughts and I really need to wright them all down some where and my blog is the best place as I do enjoy been in contact with my blog Last evening I started a draft post to go on the blog today Monday but I was not happy with that post at all so deleted the draft for some reason I was not totally happy with the way that post was swaying so there for I did not want to post it but I want to post this one no matter how it sways for sure Yes I do still miss my friend who knows about blindness fully and I do think what has ever built up here will be to tricky for the phew team to deal with even today I am finding this feeling over the top and even roberta has not got the skills to deal with this one as it will take them all the few days I am there to sort this nicola said to me have a word with tracey who will then have a word with linda hush I want tracey to have a word with drina more like it as I...

hi all this blog will carry on to talk about feelings no matter what i wright but it will not be used for fiction wrighting at all as my heart is not in to dreaming about fiction i like wrighting about feelings sad ones especially as it brings me some piece fiction was not doing this it was far from the wrighting i enjoy fiction was making me agitated and even alow we play around with the same subject all most we can have fun as we could take it out of context as councilers want there users to do this so that the counciler has a good picture of what is going on in your head as he or she wants your dreams to as well as any thing else in your head i think counciling must be amazing at times as the storys you must hear must make you have alot of very hard feelings your self i know councilers have degrees and what ever else needed to cover there job but i am sure they do not have all the feelings that can come up in that job daily i mean it can be stressful at times but it must have a good...

hi diarry would it not be amazing if michelle had to come to phew as a worker specialist in blindness only and work with the blind users only hush i really think she wood be grate at this job as she has the skills for it i give you a laugh vickie said to me do not tell any of us we are not friendly but that does not come in to this what i am saying is there training on blindness needs could be improved alot and michelle wood be able to look at my support plan and it wood not be chinky to her and i personally think this will take some one with more skills than they have as folks there issue is they rush all tasks and do not read i personally think this time i will work with the old timers more again even they need michelle as i am been truthfull they allways rush tasks allways with michelle been there they wood not get away with this at all and i can just picture all of that team looking at michelle reading my file as they talk chinky about my file even janice wood be saying who is mich...

hi all i can not wright fiction i start off fine then i mess up i coc it up and i am better at wrighting feelings down that in its self is good skill to have we can play with michelle and her blindness skills for alot more posts yet what ever has got me to think of her has not left me yet and i can not think of any thing else do you ever get like that you get ahold of a feeling and you can not forget about the friendship you had with some one or a special friend it is possible to have alot of feelings towards a friend or an friend who has supported you for alot of years i will post more about her soon as in sunday later

hi all just looked on fb and no news yet if i will be in when tiny ann marie is there she is really tiny friends and she looks not adult at all hush tracey can lift her she is that small later

hi all the reason i put the blog back to feelings only and it will stay like this as i set the resort up for this and i know blogs do sway from topics but i thought this one was going to end up fiction here we can use real peple and imagine them working with disabled and friends michelle wood be very good to have at phew for me i think my care plan is chinky to them and that is how i am saying we might need to find some one who can read it and can understand it from a blindness view and can teach them as hush they are not very very well trained in blindness at all and that is another reason why i have kept this blog as a counciling idea later

Not been funny here for this Saturday morning I have all the feelings back from when I missed michelle and I still do even right now that is why I am wrighting this on the blog when I have got a start to a blog I wright it down wright away so I do not forget the starting line of words I want to use or to access in my head Now I can only use my imagination of michelle working there and imagine her supporting me 1 on 1 all the visit in may michelle wood do it perfectly and be on shift all day from 7.45 to 9.45 in the evening so the rota wood say her name michelle carins then they wood say who is michelle carins coming on with us I seriousley think there is a massive problem with my support plan as friends it does not seem to be getting followed or updated now at all on any visit and that in its self is weard as I am sure they are ment to do this not all visits but some visit and that is why I am saying we might need some one who has higher skills than the team to first of all read it the...

hi all when i started the chat resort it was ment to be a plat form for me to wright down my feelings like a counciling plat form as from this post this evening i will no longer be wrighting fiction stories from when i send this post to the blog this evening i have deleted jimmy and tam from the blog i have also deleted franny from my hard drive from now on this blog will only be for posts about feelings private ones as well as any other ones i may have daily i do not think fiction is for me as i do not want to fall out with any lists at all as i wood hate to be band or lose my jaws or even lose my internet so from now on we will talk about phew and take things out of context on the blog only if i have mager feelings that day i will put them here later

We will use a poo for this post I know that all of us poo but see when you have disabilities like tommy had or I have you can feel very Embarrassed i mean very Embarrassed to tell any one care givers no matter how friendly you are with them look I need to get you to take me for a poo and if you think about it when they come in to get you cleaned first thing they see is you sitting down and when they clean you they can tell how busy you were and they can see how much dump you have left in the pan before they flush it away and if you have filled the pan a person who does not need this support at all its much easyer for them as you can just say I need to shut the door and get on with my business And when you are some where else like me it can be doublely Embarrassing as you do not know them as well as you know your mum and dad And when you have no idea of where your toilet is it can be Embarrassing to ask for this support Even when I am a broad it can be scarry for a few days even to sit ...

Still miss michelle carins and I do not think tracey can help me or roberta at all roberta is not as good as michelle was at all with michelle I could tell her what the real issue is at phew wich I am not going to put here just now as I need to do some more fiction posts here just now about michelle as friends I wood be in less pain if I had michelle with me for a few visits than I am currently as what they do not understand is I am in pain as they do not give me time with them at all all they are doing for me really is giving me tablets and food daily and that is been truthful with michelle I could go out away from the sound totally and I wood not be in pain do not put any thing passed my dad if they do not take me serious in may he might look in to other ways of having respite or other places with better people as the team as phew has went down hill after angela left as she had a stroke and if we need to get other people in phew under my dads terms we can do that as the managers can ...

hi all i think you got a little confused here i did the last post about michelle and tommy from a disabilitie point of view to let you know this support is very normal for disabilities to need and we will go deepper in to this support on alater post as i have got lots of feelings to do with private care when you have a disabilitie i hope i have made sence

When I was at the royal blind school it was a boarding school wich ment I came home on a Friday and went back on a Monday this is where michelle carins works and she is still there to this day There was one day there was this young boy called tommy who I would of said was about 10 years old at the royal blind school in edinburgh and it was a Thursday after noon and tommy must of asked michelle for a jobbie and she took him as I think he might of needed help to get his bum cleaned after he had his jobbie and I heard her say to him you must of needed that as he must of filled the toilet menny people who are disabled do need help after there bowels have moved for some reason I do not know any disabilitie who does not need this support I can allways mind I was away with mum on this short break with some blind people when I was younger at a weekend I am sure as dad was working and he could not attend so on the Sunday afternoon I needed a jobbie when I was there before we came home and I min...

Not been funny missing my friend michelle carins today and its hurtful as she was also my best friend when I was at school in edinburgh I used to enjoy our friendship a lot as she made me feel happy in lessons and she took her time with me allways and she allways was well mannered as well I can remember what she wore some days as well to work she had her white trousers on and her red jumper some days I can only dream of her supporting me at phew but she could do this allways and no matter what came up she could deal with me even there and I can only really think of roberta saying have we got a new care giver on the team no you have not as michelle is here to support jamie privately I wish that wood come true as it woodsave me from getting so much pain and I wood be able to get out more as I like to get out but recently that is not happening jue to the pots ways of doing things with michelle there the team wood be amazed at how she could deal with my blindness as she wood be able to tea...

Hi diarry What phew do not understand mum and dad and I know people who still supports disabled so yes we can be still as hard with phew if it came to it and get there advice as well as maybe to even come to support me there for a few hours each day or for the full trip daily and for now this is only fiction wrighting for the blog but this has been on my mind this week we could ask advice and if phew do not buck up the staffing we might have to ask as I am sure there must be a limit to what staffing she has on at one time hush she allways trys to cut costs and wages and I am getting sick of her doing this then as the user we can do nothing like trips outside as she has sent one or 2 home only because of users who have canceled now she has 10 users in apart from the 4 it had canceled so she still needs staff to cover any thing it might happen on that shift the same amount I should think I wood hate to take seriousley not well on a visit as she has not got the staff to cover this we will...

hi all micro soft edge has got a new one out but its ment to be jaws friendly but friends its shight and no it is not jaws friendly at all as it works with rss feeds now they automaticly update so i do not like it so have did away with it i do not mind software with jaws if its not shight and you can control it with a keyboard i am hoping this is the case with this new audio book page later

DEAR DIARRY AT PHEW I STARTED A LIST OF WORDS THAT I USE AND SOME SIGNS THAT I USE NAMED MAKATON AS AT A VISIT A USER SAID DO YOU NEED THE TOILET WHEN I WAS LOOKING FOR THE NIGHT SHIFT TO TALK TO ONLY SO I FIRST THOUGHT THAT NIGHT HOW DO YOU KNOW I MIGHT NEED THIS SUPPORT AS THAT USER SHOULD NEVER KNOW WHAT SUPPORT I NEED SO I NEVER SAID ANY THING THAT NIGHT AS I WAS COMING HOME THE NEXT DAY FRIDAY TO ANY ONE OF THE CARE GIVERS AS ALL BUSY DOING FILES AS IT WAS NEAR THE END OF THE THURSDAY EVENING SHIFT BUT I DO NOT MIND PUTTING THE USERS NAME HERE IF I MIND RIGHT IT WAS A USER CALLED SHARON WHO CAN TALK AND UNDERSTAND THINGS BUT IF I EVER FIND OUT HOW SHARON KNEW THIS HUSH I WILL BE REPORTING THIS TO THE MANAGER AND THAT PERSON WHO TOLD HER AS WELL OR DID SHE OVER HEAR SOME ONE SAYING I AM NOT SURE THAT IS HOW I HAVE NOT TOOK IT UP WITH THE MANAGER SO ON MY WEEKEND VISIT IN NOVEMBER I HAPPENED TO SAY TO TRACEY I USE SOME WORDS FOR SOME ITEMS SO WE WROTE THEM ALL DOWN ON A SHEET OF PAP...

Hi diarry Good Monday morning to you I am doing ok today this post might be long or short I am not quite sure as of yet as it could sway with off topic as my blog has not got a topic this is perfect I do not quite know how I feel today but I do want to try to do a few posts and maybe even get that one started on that word list if not today this few coming weeks but I will do it it is just finding how to word it for the blog idea is the issue as it has got to be a set post and it can not sway off topic or its no use the reason why I am doing a post on that word list is it angers me how they are clearly not willing to read it and do this for me but I do miss michelle at my school who was a support worker in the classes and what her job was to help me with the work the teacher set out like exam test papers or to take notes for me so that the school could put the lessons in to brail some times she used to help me with lessons even alow I was not time tabled for her support if the other sup...

Hi diarry I am not trying to spamm the grate blog I have got going but at some stage this week I hope in less things change and we get an audio book service back online you see friends I am not dead sure when the holidays for the schools finishat all but this is not the main point of this post at all I want to talk about my word list more and how they could improve on my visits buy using it now warning yet again some of that post will be personal as I need to do the words from my head and I also want to tell you about how I need to add to that list once I think about the post for the blog I will start it on the word list Hugs

hi all vickie had her JEANS on in the last visit and to be truthful she did not suit them with her wait and she has long dark hair wich does not help her wait and to be truthful i like her working there but its her wait i know she can maybe not help this after having a child last year but friends the part of her body it stood out to me the most was her bum as friends her bum looks as if it could come out of the JEANS with in 2 seconds hush i can even only think about her trying for a jobbie as she is that over wait i do not know how she manages to sit on a toilet seat just at this time she did offer me help if i needed to go for a jobbie but i thought no thanks as you are to keen on your job but just now you need to get some wait off before you can help me with this task even tracey is thin than her on her bum as well i like care givers to be fit for that job especially even nicola is fitter than vickie after what went on with her heart you see i am not been sexest but a man care giver...

Hi Well I gave this post to the blog a blog title first as I had to re post the link I know how you sort that now if I do not like the title the first time around as like an email you can change the subject line if you do not like it the first time our weather is horrible with heavy rain damp is well the temp just feels wright in the house which I am glad about as it looks as if I will be spending my day online yet again I got used to going out a walk with mum we have not been out since Friday as the weather has been nasty and right damp and yuck And I am just ok but not grate at all as I do really feel I need counciling but I can not find one or even access one so I am happy to wright all my daily feelings down no matter what comes out in words I will just post it to the blog as that is what a blog is there for and you do not need to be a master book wrighter to have a blog at all What does not help me is this well all users are ment to have a named person who we can chat to about vis...

hi all i also miss my friend called michelle carins she is nothing to do with that other place michelle was a classroom support worker who had a family in sweeden no i did not have to speak sweedish to her as her and her man called jim were scottish and i wonder if she had epilepsy training to this day as she used to act as a counciler for me as well but at that time i did not have any seizures at all that we know of i might of had this all my life and this is a piece for a longer post much later i am still thinking of ann marie and how tiny she is if you had to see her you wood understand how i am wondering as she does look not normal for her age as she is not tall at all i do want to ask about her as drina has let me come in with sarah before sarah asked me in march if i was in at a date hmm the date sounds right for next march but we will see as i am trying to track anne marie or should i say tiny ann marie as she is like a doll and hush i have not saw her since last year i know she...

hi all there has been a serius car crash on the island of madeira and folks when i say they fly up and down the roads i mean they are like a good jet i am scared in the taxi as i can feel him doing fast racing here is tobies article https://www.madeiraislandnews.com/2019/04/serious-accident-in-calheta-12-firefighters-rescue-victims.html now later

I thought after so long you had to start a new blog as it was full of posts and that is why I have been confused with this hobbie a lot so I am getting the hang of it again using the same blog I did do a google search on this blogs name but it never showed mine so I know it is not in any results good in away as I never put it on any blind sight I am not sure how I feel I might not even ask for ann marie but she is so small it is not true I thought she was a child who came in with us I am not aloud to ask what disabilitie she has but I wish I could ask her direct as I am keen to know why she is so tiny in size she is so light and tiny that one of the staff can even lift her and put her in a chair now I know they are not ment to lift any user but she is that light they can get her out of her wheel chair that way and I do not think she is that tall as staf call her tiny ann marie so she must be tiny for sure its still dead online dad says its not easter yet but it might be early for some ...

Hi diarry I am going to put this important post on the blog I like to talk about my bowels on here some times as when you are disabled and can not get out the house without support this can effect your bowels from moving right over the last few days I can truthfully say this past few days of this week days that is the best jobbies I have had for a long time where I have felt totally cleared out and as you know I do eat our weather today on this Thursday is mixed one second its heavy rain and the next second its sun but still verry very cold and I mean cold for april and yes I will talk to you about my tummy some times as I regard this is very important as I do get constipated some times especially after a flight so even alow I look forward to a flight it’s the after effects of it wich can some times lead to constipation at the hotel I will talk to you on a post about the word list at phew on another post wich they should be using but are not I am still sorry to report I call a jobbie a...

hi all i have another talking book service called listening books but that service is aload of shight as all it is is bloody shight short storys and fiction shight titles and with rnib you get grate long books like 40 hours to me that is not shight as you can listen all day with listening books i wood need to have 6  books in a day to keep my interest and no i do not listen to listening books i am waiting for that account to be closed hugs

Dear diarry I am doing ok but glad I was at home on this Wednesday morning as I did need a huge plopp and after my plopp I had a wee so it is possible I will need to cover this in the support plan I do agree i can not understand why it wood make me loss my skills I can do for my self as that is not to much to ask of them as how wood you cope if you were disabled and you went in to the toilet and like me today thought I need a plopp time but I also need a wee but hush linda will not do that have some one come with me each time but I also do not think that is right of her not to offer me that help and that is why I am very much questioning my self if I should do a review or not Moving on we have snow and sleet on this Wednesday here in scotland I was on a page about blogging and it says wright about anything on your blog even people who you have a friendship with if they are special to you and it also said up date the blog and update it and keep it going from today what ever I wright on...

hi all on a list today all of the members are looking for paul regarding the new system of audio books as i personally think all people have waited long and its a bout time they gave us a date or better still a log in details and its not only me who said or are missing it i am grateful its went to a public lists as people will now have a public viewing good on them and i will keep the blog updated until we have hot news from the daily papers then we can have a party of books and a testing pint book party as well hugs

I am allways in a frustrating hich at all visits Now this is very important to me that I can drop a load of poo in the mornings or when I am there at any time in the day as my jobbie time is mixed up as see on the last visit I do mind I asked for a jobbie in the afternoon at 3 pm but now I remain clueless what to do if I need a wee first then at the same time a jobbie what I mean is if I do one after the other So lets say I went so I thought only for a wee that is fine but say I wanted both at the one sitting the issue is I have not told any one linda says we do not want to take your skills away that you have I understand this but I do not think this wood be taking my skills away as its very important that I can feel at ease I think this is a tracey one or a janice one for sure as they know what they could do to help me with this one its not only this I feel that going for a jobbie is very important there hush you might need both and how do you know its not both until you get there no ...

Hi blog I think there might be a 2 week delay on the audio book new service as I just mminded we have the easter half term school holiday for the 2 weeks just now but how ever I will keep the blog updated if any one gets back with me but I do not think so as they go on holiday at the same time as the schools for what ever crazy reason I will be prooved wrong but I think I am wright Later

hi all i was disapointed again as i found a good audio book so i thought it sounded grate so i listened to the sample of the file and found it had a hiss and a pop and it sounded like a tin of paint for your house i feel very very disapointed about that bloody book as it was to late to blog about it here i thought i would do it today as it angers me that the files are in that state i know that the rnib who is an english services place for blind audio books get most of there books for free or low cost but it does not make any odds the files should be to a standard of listeners ears and some of them are not and to make matters worse some of the files are shight sound totally and that is the only word i can use sorry for my french again so i did email paul again and told him this about the current system as menny of a bloody time i have found books on there only to have to find the book had a low sound or a hiss or a pop like an old 45 record and i have had to abanden the book menny of a ...