monday chat

Diarry

I have just got up on this Monday morning and my head is buzzing with a lot of heavy thoughts and I really need to wright them all down some where and my blog is the best place as I do enjoy been in contact with my blog

Last evening I started a draft post to go on the blog today Monday but I was not happy with that post at all so deleted the draft for some reason I was not totally happy with the way that post was swaying so there for I did not want to post it but I want to post this one no matter how it sways for sure

Yes I do still miss my friend who knows about blindness fully and I do think what has ever built up here will be to tricky for the phew team to deal with even today I am finding this feeling over the top and even roberta has not got the skills to deal with this one as it will take them all the few days I am there to sort this nicola said to me have a word with tracey who will then have a word with linda hush I want tracey to have a word with drina more like it as I am ameing to try to ditch linda this diarry but I might not get my wishes but if that is what I am wishing to do well it should be respected but on the other hand who is drina going to tank me with a weardo or some one who has not got a clue on blindness hush that is why I am stopping my self from saying what I truly think about the blindness training michelle could deal with this better than helen even can helen was going to get them all on blindness training but did it happen no it was a fiction idea yet again so I am not sure how I am feeling about going back as do not ask me about trisha as that is a sore subject and that is how nicola is there on the fly if she is not working all I will say she is doing night shift all the time but that is brought on more feelings for me about going and that is where they could support me more janice allways says to me what is it nicola does we are not doing first of all with her been a senior she knows all there tricks and miss understandings from when she was a senior and hush she still hears storrys about the place on her 2 night shifts yes nicola is not that slow with there tricks she went off at a senior once over a book it was not filled in right she says to this senior see that book its not filled in the way I wood of did it and that was that hush one day they will get found out buy the care boys I wish it wood happen as I bet they could find a lot up with the place regarding support plans and other paper work

And folks nicola also makes me feel wanted there buy saying you can sit in your room but come and get me if you need any thing even on her night shifts now she will say this

I never told you what happened on the Tuesday in march to me again I felt vomitish all day until late on in the day but see if ever I find out its because of there food as hush some times you go to eat something in there and even alow the food is good it can give you a funny feeling in your tummy and a sore head as well and hush see buy the Friday or the Thursday I do not mind telling you here I hope you do not mind I need to have a huge solid as in a good plopp with the water going splash as well as my head is that sore as well and I do drink its something to do with there food I am sure of it totally as see when I am there for a strate 7 it has the same effect

And I just want michelle there as she could fix all the topics and she has a pvg to work with me so the pots can not do anything at all and michelle is very very good at reading files about blindness allways has been and allways will be as that is part of her job to do support plans currently as when you are working with a kid with special needs in a class room most of the jobs I have found online do state this so yes michelle could do mine I wish and all of them could see her doing it wich I wood not mind

See that Monday in march when I was there I wanted a plopp that evening so when janice took me back to my room I was ready to ask just about and you will be shocked linda who was been hell of smart sent her and another few home so I could not even ask as they were flying around as they were a few down and know what got me linda canceled all the shifts that few days for some of them now you can not run a place like that especially with disabilities as for example just for talking fiction if I had to take a small seizure with vickie in my room well that is vickie away with me for do not know how long until I feel better now if they keep canceling shifts what they will find is if some one even had to vomit after a seizure they will not have staff to cover it now I am sure the cheef will not be happy if she had to find out but she aproves things like this without seeing the risk allways if this carrys on for this diarry I will need to look at bringing my own carer in and I am been serious I mean even the night shift were saying she canceled to menny I did think this I mean if some one had to go to hospital and they could not get in contact with there family that is another member of staff off the floor so this needs looked at seriousley I want to speak to a counciler about this place and I want drina to arange this no matter if she has to fork out cash as its starting to effect my brain

Later