along chat

hi diarry

would it not be amazing if michelle had to come to phew as a worker specialist in blindness only and work with the blind users only hush i really think she wood be grate at this job as she has the skills for it i give you a laugh vickie said to me do not tell any of us we are not friendly but that does not come in to this what i am saying is there training on blindness needs could be improved alot and michelle wood be able to look at my support plan and it wood not be chinky to her and i personally think this will take some one with more skills than they have as folks there issue is they rush all tasks and do not read i personally think this time i will work with the old timers more again even they need michelle as i am been truthfull they allways rush tasks allways with michelle been there they wood not get away with this at all and i can just picture all of that team looking at michelle reading my file as they talk chinky about my file even janice wood be saying who is michelle well she is here only when jamie is with us hush if this came true i wood be over the moon as we could maybe achieve some paper work first this might still need to happen as i do not think tracey can talk to me about this or roberta from some where like traceys office she could know some one who deals with counciling but i am only messing around with my dream world and telling you how i feel at the time of doing this piece that is what you do with speaking councilers you tell them how you are feeling at the second even if its only dream feelings that you have you tell her or him i get on with ladys better at this but again they do not understand this even alow i want to work with emma if she is there its if my brain will be clear to do this as right now its focused on michelle and it will not move from this feeling its not a love feeling but i more need her than i do tracey as i could tell her about the place from a blindness point of view and that is what i need nicola says talk to tracey ok that wood be perfect if it was not so hard to express and it might get heated at some parts where you need michelles skills to know what i am saying or meaning janice said how am i before i come hmm what a question to ask some one when his mind is on a person with a red jumper and  white trousers who i miss dearly and vickie with her jeans could of helped me or tried to again she put it to the side again sorry that is your job vickie that is what social work pay you for and drina craig as well as the others in phew

i have not went to the social work jobs for a while on s1 jobs .com might do that on sunday as i want to have a looky out of interest you can learn a lot from going to that sight all the time that cite is looking for care givers or cheefs of social workers or seniors of care houses or night shift only its bloody cool that page

my sunday is just started and i do think still i need michelle and i am still angry at vickie and her manners now if a user like me tells her something like i found this group of users hard to cope with her first question should of been tell me why you are saying that and how can i help you just at this second not you better tell drina you see if i told michelle this one she wood of told them hang on jamie has said he did not enjoy this visit as a result of the groups who were in at the same time as him you see michelle carins has a kamming voice as well for that job so has vickie and janice and tracey but i think this will take more than what they have even got time for and they can not even book there self off shift and i refuse to go over again as linda has not kept her statement i will contact you over a bloody meeting now how bad is that i have lost count of the number of times she has been saying this she is a wich and michelle would not do this let a user down that menny times i am disapointed in lindas lack of support or friendship or both now i will get private again just for a second i said to her after the  sleeppless night i had on the tuesday i said to her on the wednesday morning before i went out can you arange with the afternoon shift for some one on that shift to take me to the restroom for a good plopp  her anser was is it a wee you need as you can do that your self and i thought i just told you its a plopp i need not a wee i was even signing to her about this  how horrible was that of her that was not called for at any time i felt thick she made me feel that way you know how some people make you feel nervice and scared of there next word to you i know when i need a wee but i also know when i need a solid as in a plopp and of corse i can tell linda when i need a plopp and i can also tell her how my body feels if she had of listened that day linda might of said you mean a plopp i will arange that as i could feel one comeing on but it was going to take a few hours to get going do you ever get that feeling

now if i had of said this to michelle of corse she wood of took me for a solid as that is what dad payed her for folks i am not been nasty to any one who works in there but they do need to listen to each user no matter what the needs are i know it changes every week but they should be used to that buy now and i know emma found this hard all the changing every week but emma said this right out like in a lounge and even alow she is only there some times i thought that was very brave of her to say that as people will not be able to help her if she is stuck hush that is how i took her in with me as i thought if she needs to ask any thing about doing things for me i can tell her i was very amazed at her and how well she did with me she did ask what happens to your close as mum woshes them but that is all she asked with linda she thinks i am asking her for a wee allways i do get that feeling when infact i am asking her for a solid as in a plopp i mean its easy for linda to get confused i am not saying she does not get confused with what i am meaning as i know they have alot of needs there weekly or daily but if i ask for something as in a restroom time i need to use the paper as i need a solid or a plopp now i do get the feeling linda is very confused as when i asked her on the wednesday for example about what i mean linda automaticly said if you need a wee you can do that your self it was like what she thought was the right thing i was meaning i think some of them need alot more blindness training as what i ment linda i need to go in and try to push for a solid i mean i do not know even if tracey can cope with speaking to me about this as they can not come off shift for that long when they are talking to me they are ment to be on the floor i am sorry i do not get that as if you are with a user talking you are doing something and this is confusing for me so am i not ment to talk to them about life at home or how i am coping there you see there is alot of very huge questions which they will not have time for and michelle wood have better understanding a user even complained about the lack of privacey in march not me i may add but i thought to my self you are right to complain as privacy is getting out of control and no one in there seems to care or respect this disabled people do have private lifes you know like cited people having privacy is really important to me and i want to express why i gotso upset to this day i am still angry about this i understand they need to make sure that tablets are right totally i can fully understand this allways but to come in to a room when a user was getting help with a solid is not on and i felt very full until she came in and put me off infact i might say this to tracey just out of interest to see what she says hush i do not want to get any one fired over this at all but i do want to see what tracey has to say on this matter out of interest you know as people in there have other views on items as nicola doherty will tell you at times it can get very heated round a table even i have been going since i was young and i think some of the rules are out of this world and in dream land and mental as 2 birds and to add to the house of dramawe have this new senior called darren and he is weard towards me as he said is that him it wrights to all the staff as nicola doherty will tell you i do this to save them getting confused with what i might  need and he will not stop me if he does i will tell nicola doherty on the fly and she will sort it with him as he has not got a brain to be a senior in there he is acting like a pot and if you start in there i wood have a rule where you start as a basic staff and then only if i feel you are able to be a senior i wood give you the job its like my father working for his factory he passes the interview but he goes on his first day and he is a manager not what he thought

i still miss michelle alot even just now i might post later again

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