wrighting

Hi all

I wanted to do more fiction wrighting on my blog you see the way I see wrighting is very kamming and some times you can feel at piece doing some wrighting to your self for others to look at as wrighting is like counciling as you can wright about all topics and no one will say well you can not do or say that on this piece wrighting is like free speech wich I feel people who are blind or disabled do not have some times nearly allways and it really bugs me when people say you can not say that or this and keep your feelings to your self and how can you keep feelings to your self I was in a hich a few month ago one I felt I should never of faced at all I was refused support all times from this so called care giver now I do notcare if she is a school teacher if she wants to work for this place well she has got to under take what the other staff do in that building at all shifts no matter what she is out of there and to make matters worse about the same issue a few hours after I left I was sitting online and this email came in from this manager who can also be a total nightmare at times and she said I got the person who you asked and folks she has told the manager she clearly never knew so I do not know where I stand with her at all as in terms of her doing my single care and I would like to have a clear anser to this I would like to think I have the disabled wright to say no but not sure as we have staff in there folks who are bloody weard I feel as if I am on a tv show with them like question time this is a programme on tv for politics and the public are debateing all sorts of questions about politics and at times it can be interesting but at other times it can be boring allways and people say to me what do you get out of wrighting a blog well it brings me joy and kamness to do a piece and maybe I should take it up as a side hobbie away from emails but again I am not a pro blogger I do not think you need to be a pro writer to enjoy blogging as after all if all people were pro writers the world would not be the same I want to speak to the states today I also do this to my pen friend who also reads this blog and enjoys my writeing of how I am feeling really feelings do hurt and I know this as I am hurting right now and I feel it can not go on I feel it must come out and have a place to share it and the blog might be the best place as you are not wrighting direct to the readers on email all you are doing is making a document and sharing your thoughts on a platform called a blog and people can read it or not and I did not mean this peace to be so long but I do like talking about feelings and I think depression is one feeling you get at some stage in your life even alow you do not have it I think people at some time have depression allways and it can be worse for disabled people as it might be frustation with them at all times I feel like this but can not allways share this at any time and sadness comes in to feelings sadness is very important as sadness can be with depression sadness I get this nearly allways at other times as well sadness can effect your brain as if you feel sad you might have to do something about it I think sadness is not a easy feeling to know as sadness can go withanger if you feel angry to me that means that you are up tight about something I think sadness is an important feelingto control if you can I think sadness is an important feeling to share as people will not know how bad you feel with sadness people say if you have a pint that will help your feelings no it will lead you to more problems in your life I think talking about feelings is very important or if you can not speak to some one you can wright it down no matter what comes out buy wrighting you could achieve something buy clearing out your head one thing I would love to do is sit down with some one to talk about feelings on a visit as this is the only people who I can see in life I do not know how that would be possible I might ask but I do not know if it would be possible as I find it easyer to share with a lady I know this sounds horrible

Do you ever feel that going for a seat on the toilet ever helps your feelings I some times do but at other times no like today I still feel the need to wright this and post it on the blog I think my blog will be well used from today as this has been building up and up all this and I feel its time to let go of this as it is now making me feel nervice its like going to a large meeting of people and you feel nervice to go in to the room to meet the people and feeling nervice is the way feelings build up and up I think to feel worried is another thing it has nothing to do with feelings as if you feel worried you start to shake and to me worried has a lot of side feelings I can not understand as I have not felt worried in the shaking sence I know so much I need to share on here its not holding back today its building up and up

Later folks