some thoughts on new audio book service

hi

what i may do is give it until the end of april and if no word contact paul again regarding getting logged in as he says its in its last stages of them testing the new audio book service and i know the old sight still works but who in the holely jesus wood want to use a bloody sight of books if it was not getting updated with recent titles no one who i know wood want to bloody take this chance that is how i am not listening to any thing just now hush that is how you make your machine smoked as who knows what is getting put on the out of date book files if the sight is not manned right no one its like you buying a car a few years or months later you find you have packed it up as you refused to pay out for serviceing its the same thing online if i do not want to use a file i delete it as i am finished using that file its frustrating i know that having to wait but better that than making your machine very ill

i emailed linda today as hush i know that she tryed to talk to me 2 times but on the 2 times that she did this the groups were aranged to go out and i put my name down both times to go especially to the wednesday one as we were going to ride some disabled designed bikes where the care givers can go on with us and ride on with us its a centre that one of the staff found and he got talking to the lady who runs it and he told the lady he worked with disabilities and he might use her if the groups that he had wanted to do that one hush we get it at low cost than the public pay as he has got to know that lady buy name

i really needed linda on the thursday as i was feeling sad again and i did try to tell one of the carers who is called vickie how i felt but she did not go to get linda who was in phew and vickie should of told linda just in case i tryed to harm my self or even hit my self until i had blood coming out of my hands as i also felt as if i was needing to clear out again but i was stuck as i felt as if i was going to self harm wich as vickie will tell you i do not self harm normally when i am with them

and if i had of self harmed vickie wood of been held as i told her so vickie wood of got held to question as i did tell her what she should of did was tell one of the seniors strate away like this jamie said to me he feels sad and we better watch him just in case he goes to self harm his self as they are trained to stop self harming hush for lots of visits i have felt as if i could harm my self hush i am trying to express that but i am wondering currently if i want to self harm as i need to jobbie that could be a trigger to self harm in future visits if i feel as if i need to self harm i will watch the trigger

later